Invisable

My list of symptoms as of today...

 

  I pushed my body so far that I have become house bound and bedridden most days. I spent the last five years sick and lost my teenage years due to this illness. I may be depressed but only because I’m sick not the other way around. Before getting sick I was an overachiever and fully energetic, taking a break wasn’t in my vocabulary. I spent every waking moment on my feet doing ten things at a time. I have over 54 awards and 5 medals and trophies. I love to read, photography, I love the outdoors, and to run mostly track. I love to dance and could dance up to four hours without a break. It’s not that I don’t still love these things it’s that I can’t due to this illness. Indescribable physical and mental exhaustion, insomnia, inconsistent sleep patterns, severe nausea. Worsen of symptoms with stress, confusion, concentration and memory problems. Dizziness, sensory overload, sensitivity to light, and anxiety. I also suffer from sever headaches and loss of appetite, constantly freezing, lack of weight gain, loss of weight, and shakiness. My mother has to help me and I miss a lot of holidays. I miss out on alot of memories......

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